All I Want for Christmas is to get A's on my Finals!

I went home for a bit over the weekend and totally meant to study and never managed too...I got too distracted playing Christmas carols on the piano (which is a lot more fun). I really can't wait to be done with this week because all I want to do is be home and playing with my puppies!

I'm really excited for KZPsi stuff next semester! I'm the new Alumni Chair (all you do is send emails with updates to alumni) but even though it's not much I'm excited since I'll still be busy with work and other stuff. My big is the sigma class pledgemom so I'm really excited for her because our pledgemom was pretty awesome and my big is pretty awesome so the sigmas are going to have an awesome pledging process.

I wish there were more episodes of Glee to look forward to, but that's all done until April. The fall finale didn't disappoint, but I hope the writers focuse a little more on the plot for the second half of the season and work out some of the more impractical things and strengthen some of the other characters since the show's not going to last if it's only the music pulling it along.

After finals are over and I go home I want to:
-visit some of my old teachers with my bff who's in Atlanta right now
-catch up on the show Greek (I still haven't finished watching the first season)
-post Christmas song music videos on people's facebook walls :-P
-sleep
-play with my puppies
-run and increase the amounts of non-cardio exercises that I do.

Women's Leadership

Now that I have less than 48 hours to write 6-8 pages and find 5-6 scholarly sources for my Women's Leadership final paper I have thought of a direction to take it in. And of course it's also about 3:00 am right now. I know I'll be able to get it done, but I'm not looking forward to writing this thing at all...The only good part about the paper is that it's kind of based off of an interview that we had to do and I interviewed a woman that I know back home who's heavily involved in Girl Scouts.

One of my friends who decided to completely cut herself off from every one of her friends early in the summer has finally resurfaced on facebook (under a different name though). It's a rellief to hear from her again but I wish I could see her and talk to her in person but her life is so completely different now since she's pretty much 100% on her own and has no help whatsoever from her family. I mentioned visiting her over winter break and she seemed receptive to the idea so I guess I'll start from there...I don't have any hard feelings towards her or expect (or think there's even a need for) an apology or anything but there are still things that I just don't understand...

Elections for chair positions for next semester for KZPsi are this week on Wednesday and since us Rhos are now sisters, we are eligible to run. I'm actually not sure how many chair positions there are since we only had to know certain ones, but I would kind of like to try for something. I just don't know if I realistically have the time since I'm still planning to work next semester which takes up 3 evenings a week (not that the hours are bad, but evening hours are pretty crucial to getting things done... :( ) and my bf expects me to visit him 2 weekends a month next semester. I like being really involved with organizations, but I don't want to do a bad job due to a lack of time or something. But we'll see what happens (some chair positions are supposedly easier/less time consuming so you never know...). I also don't know if it's in my best interests to visit my bf twice a month. I haven't asked my parents for any money this semester (yes, they paid tuition but I mean extra money to cover outside of school expenses) and I would like to keep it that way. That being said, I don't want to absolutely have to work and I don't know if I was able to save any money this semester. I have to check my bank account and trace things back but I really don't think I was able to save a thing. I might have even come out at a loss. And I do NOT want to be stuck working as a telemarketer forever. Pledging did cost a bunch of money because we had to buy stuff to make the family night paddle and different things, but going to Philadelphia cost a lot of money too. And when in Philly, I don't get free meals off of his meal plan. No. I have to buy pretty much all of my meals because that's what equality is. And he doesn't have a meal plan (yes, I am a little annoyed with him right now but I don't care).

My bf came to visit this weekend so he could come to the pledge party that the new sisters throw for the sisters but I haven't spoken to him since he left yesterday. And I don't really intend to speak to him anytime soon. And I know he's going to read this and I don't care. There used to be a time where I depended on him for everything and I needed help with every little thing and was completely convinced that I'd end up failing out of school without his help, but I don't need his help anymore. And I'm sick of feeling like some inferior person because I didn't always get him nice gifts and shit like that. Right now I'm pretty convinced that I'd be okay without him entirely. I'm not even sure that we're that great of friends right now. I'm also really sick of having to worry about every little thing that I do. I know that being with me complicates his life too because he's arranged rehearsal schedules around me and stuff, but on the other hand he's pretty fucking lucky that I was okay with him doing organizations in the first place. He didn't want me joining the swing dancing club at my school because it would involve me dancing with other guys and he never wanted me to do the musical in high school because doing the musical would have been time consuming. I have never told him not to do/join something.

I apologize for the rambling, nonsensical blob that this post is, but my bf and I are kind of fighting once again. Surprise surprise. And I know that he thinks that this time is only my fault, but he's wrong. And if when I check my bank account there is no money at all left from working, I will be cutting back on certain things next semester.

Crossing :)

I'm now officially a sister of Kappa Zeta Psi, no longer a pledge. :) I am very excited and happy about this, but I feel like it still hasn't really sunk in...I'm really happy about it though because I really like all of the girls involved with the sorority. My big, Devon, gave me a lot of pretty crafts after initiation, but the only camera I have is my phone camera which isn't real good or I'd post pictures. :(

gLee

Is it just me or was the last episode of Glee kind of weak? Now don't get me wrong, I really like Glee, I like the musical aspect and I think that it's kind of cute, but I think they were relying too heavily on the music to carry the last episode "Hairography." Scenes like the one with the students from the deaf school were nice, but in my opinion seemed almost out of place and random. I didn't really think that those scenes did anything for the plot or really made any sense in the context of everything else going on in the other episodes. I also just didn't see much of a plot in the last episode...I think for the show to be stronger overall the writers need to focus a little more on character development and plot and not just rely on the music to carry the show and captivate the audience. Aside from that, I still really like the show and can't wait to see the last episodes in the season (even if that seems kind of hypocritical...)!

I really don't want break to end. :( I want to stay home and rest longer because I feel like I still haven't caught up on sleep from September. I also really wish that I didn't have to work, but I feel like I need the money because I like being able to buy things...And not have to ask my parents for money...

Two Thanksgivings

This year, I got to have two yummy Thanksgivings. The first one was on the real day and involved going with my boyfriend to one of his family's family friend's houses and the second one involved staying at my house and getting to see my maternal grandmother and most of my cousins. Both days were nice, but now I feel like I kind of lost a day since both days were pretty much devoted to the holiday. All I can think about is how much work I have to do.

So far I've managed to do some chemistry studying and to interview this woman in my town and transcribe the five page typed interview. I still have calculus homework, a lot more chem studying and a rough draft to edit though...It may not really seem like much, but papers always take me hours upon hours to edit and the chem studying is for a midterm next Wednesday. And plus tomorrow I have lots of plans to see people that I haven't seen in months...I know I probably should just say no, but when you haven't seen one good friend in months (literally, months) and it's the other friend's birthday celebration, it's hard to say no...For multiple reasons...So in seven hours my friend Irena will be picking me up to go to some flea market in PA for a little while (it's not like I would be up at 8:30 otherwise...I can never manage to wake up early to study) and then I have this birthday lunch/dinner thing to go to so hopefully that won't be too long...And not to mention that I brought home about two loads of laundry that needs done...

An Ode to Webreg

Oh webreg, why must thee suck so horribly? And why must thee servers be so slow to the point where it took nearly 30 minutes to process my request?

Well, I still got 5 out of 6 of the classes that I wanted. And by wanted I mean used as my back up for when pretty much everything I wanted was full. Even with my back up plan I still got pretty much everything I wanted. And what I didn't get I never really wanted anyway...I'm not going to need chem 2 and chem lab as an english major...But I was going to take it anyway in the event that I decided to go ahead with the bio major so I wouldn't be like a billion years behind in science courses. But yeah, my schedule is okay so far. I got closed out of chem but since it's a lecture class I may be able to get a special permission number for it anyway so there's still hope. So right now I'm registered for 14 credits for next semester which is one less than I had this semester and when I told my dad he was like "that's all you're taking?" What a loser. And he also tried finding a way to make the scheduling thing my fault and he didn't seem to really quite understand why I couldn't register until the last day when it's based on credits and I have none. Oh well.

I don't have any evening classes next semester which is good(for work and study purposes I like to have my evenings free.) My roommate was trying to get me to take an 8:10 am psych class with her, but I refused since I have trouble getting up for my 11:00 am class this semester. I did sign up for psych though, but the 11:00 class as opposed to the 8:10 one. I hope I actually like my classes next semester...